Paradox soup with a side of high expectations…

Before coming to Ghana, there were certain images I held in my imagination about Africa and about my future experience here. Upon arrival, most, if not all were destroyed. I imagined a two year camping trip where I’d be surrounded by indigenous people and traditions, limited access to power and water, and cell phones would be a distant memory. I also imagined impoverished people eking out a living in a mostly undeveloped world.
I arrived in Accra to complete insanity, cars and buses, lights flashing, a two hour mad dash trailing behind police escorts, hurrying us out of the city. My jet lag mixed with shock and surprise left me confused and exhausted. Fast forward 8 months. I live in a town with electricity, where most of the people my age have trendier clothing and gadgets than myself.
I find that I continually expect nonsensical things to occur, always followed by constant disappointment.
For example: I expected people to be stuck in the middle ages, but I find myself angry when they behave uncivilized. I longed to be away from the hustle and bustle, while I secretly yearn for modern conveniences, high heels, and hot showers. I hate the smog and pollution cast off by automobiles but I ride in taxis in Accra as often as I can. I’m saddened to see electronics becoming the most sought after product in the country, even in the Upper West, the poorest region, yet I covet my laptop, camera, cell phone and mp3s. Why is it that I think these people should be grateful for what they have and preserve the ancient traditional methods of life, when I really believe that its better where I live? (not completely better, just the comfort and convenience of it all)
The development here is occurring so rapidly in regards to consumerism, yet its at a snails pace for clean water, toilets and gender equality. I suppose to anyone who’s traveled in the developing world, this is all old news and my realizations are somewhat immature, I just keep astonishing myself with each unrealistic expectation of a place I’ve never even lived before!